recently there are just a lot of things bothering me.

like his/her existance does not really matter to me anymore. i thought that seeing him/her was a pleasure. now it became a pressure. used to think she/he was everything to me. in the end, she/he was just a burden to me. in the past, i tried to love him/her. but.. he/she keeps making me sad. and ignores me. say stuff that make my heart broken. just felt at that point of time, i wanted to break down.

it is just that loving someone is hard. why must i love others all the time? can't i just be loved for once? it's just hard to love someone that ignores you and makes you sad all the time you know. i just thought that if i went through so much, he/she will see what have i done one day for him/her. but all was........ wasted.

just as when i gave up on this person, he/she called. told me not to leave him/her. he/she just tells me that i am being nice to everyone. and he/she dont think that i love him/her more than anyone else. i do, alright? i love him/her more than anyone else. but because of his/her ignorance and temper that makes me give up on him. he/she just wants me to say that i wont leave him/her. C-O-N-F-I-D-E-N-T-L-Y.

i just cant say it out that i will not leave him/her. his/her attitude just makes me have doubts towards him/her. i dont know if i say i wont leave him/her, more challenges will come. and i wont be able to handle at all. he/she should have treasured the chance to be loved in the first place. why now then say he/she wants me? i reallt am frustrated and i have no idea what to do. please try to help. thanks.

all i wanted was just for him/her to care.[before] but he/she just does not seem to bother. it also does not mean that i am not hurt. after going through so much. is caring for me just so hard to fulfil?

i am writing he/she as i want to keep this person's identity private

♥Thursday, November 09, 2006