sometimes, life doesn't go the way we want it to go.
and often, it makes us upset.
however, since it has already been done, why do human beings always love to brood on the past.
and not look forward to the future.

it's because of; emotions, expectations, over-inflated hopes.
it's amazing how emotions can control our every movement, and our mind.
such that we can be manipulated by it the whole day.
it's depressing to know that when our expectations are not met.
we'll be so disappointed such that we leave the problem lingering around and run away from it.
it's heart-wrenching how hopes pinned so high could just tear us apart because of words,
which we do not want to hear.
and because it was heard, it could just leave us feeling down instantly in just a nickel of time.

but despite all of that, life goes on.
time does not wait for you, neither do everyone waits for you.
it's up to you whether you want to fall behind or move on.
and sometimes, the sad thing about life is that the people who you love, may not neccesarily be with you forever, because someday, they'd all have to depart from you.

and the sad reality is,
only a few people'd really be there for you when you're at the pitfall of your life.
and sometimes, it's normal when certain people like to keep everything to themselves and not say it out.
because perhaps they've realised that the only people they could possibly trust is actually themselves.

ironic, but yes, it's happening in society, in reality, in life.
i might know so much, and maybe so much more.
yet i've contradicted myself by being unable to get myself out of a disappointment(s) and move on.

i'm learning a precious lesson everyday, you're learning too.
everyone's maturing in their own way each day.
but who are actually the people who really put the words/facts known into actions?

一次又一次的失望 .

♥Saturday, February 28, 2009

well, i can't remember if i posted it up but i shall now, for the fun of it. :D

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My personality profile is a social realist! (:

Social Realists are popular persons full of energy. They are reliable, well organized and helpful. Traditional values are important to them. Founding a family also plays a central role in their life. Social Realists have a marked social streak. They are always ready to listen to the worries and problems of others and spare no effort when they are asked for help. With empathy and understanding, they can sense what other people need. Social Realists are always willing to highly regard the strong points of the other person and to excuse that person’s weaknesses. They are the most sociable of all personality types. Social contacts are very important to them.


Social Realists find it very difficult to cope with conflicts and criticism - harmony is their elixir of life. Acknowledgement and esteem are very important to this type. Differentiation on the other hand is not necessarily one of their strong points. At work and in partnerships, they are loyal, committed and always there when needed. They find it easy to make friends due to their open, warm manner and they have a large circle of friends. In love, they are faithful and attentive and care for their partners with a great deal of imagination and sensitivity. Social Realists show their feelings openly and honestly. Should a relationship break up, they tend to blame themselves. That is why they find it very difficult to end a partnership even if it has not fulfilled their requirements for some time.


Love; No other type is as loving, attentive, and committed a partner as you. Many authors describe your type as the most personable and endearing of all: caring, sensitive, and always making sure that others are comfortable in your presence. For you, investing a lot in your relationship, and totally committing yourself to another person goes without saying. You enjoy assuming responsibilities, and that applies to your partnership, as well. When you encounter hic-ups in your relationship, the first things you look for are ways to change yourself.



You were born with the need to take care of the person you love most - to the best of your ability - and to do everything to make him/her comfortable. You create a comfortable home with the feeling of security and intimacy for both of you. To please and surprise your partner, you have an astounding sense for sharing small and frequent signs of your love. Your antenna for his/her needs is almost eerie, and sometimes you almost trip over yourself with eagerness when it is important to you to meet his/her needs. In the long run, your own needs are frequently neglected when you have a partner who prefers taking over, or who does not care for you as sensitively as you care for him/her.



Any partner is going to be overwhelmed by your sensitive and exuberant nature. Because you often like to talk about things close to your heart you are not stingy with compliments and assurances of your love. You are the most emotional and passionate of the Realists. The power of your feelings often carries you away. With you, this is not just lip service because you also prove your love with deeds. Whoever is with you can always rely on you. Your fidelity and loyalty toward your partner are extraordinary and unshakeable. Comparative studies have often indicated that Social Realists lead the list of the sixteen types in the durations of their marriages. For you, a relationship represents a life-long obligation; you don’t enter into it lightly and expect stability and reliability from your partner, as well. If you are disappointed, it hurts you even more than any other of the personality types.



Social Realists are more conservative types. They have a set system of values and rules which is orientated to the prevailing traditions. They prefer clear, structured surroundings and work processes; they find too much change und unrest unpleasant. Their strong points are carefulness and reliability and not so much flexibility and spontaneity. Social Realists are open-minded towards anything new only to a limited extent. But, should one be looking for someone to fulfil a task reliably and exactly, they are the right persons.


Work; The Social Realist is the most social among all personality types. For you, it is essential to choose a profession where you can deal with as many people as possible. You recharge your batteries with the help of people contact and the personal exchanges needed for your very special talents to unfold. You are the prototype of the caring person in the positive sense, because you love to act on behalf of others and care for them. If you have the impression that there is a way to contribute by improving the quality of their life, it satisfies you more than anything.



For your type, the feeling to be needed, loved, and appreciated is more than vitally necessary. Therefore, working in seclusion is not for you. It is just too much counter to your extroverted nature, and your need for interpersonal interaction.You have the best ideas during dialogues with others, as they stimulate your creativity. Instead of developing abstract aid projects with the help of a drawing board, you prefer to engage yourself on the frontlines with person to person contact. For you, it is important to see the results of your work so you can go home feeling that you (again) made the world a better place - at least a bit.



You are a born team player. You are open and communicative, easily integrating yourself into group hierarchies. For your personality type, harmony is the keyword in your personal, as well as in your professional life. Since conflicts and power struggles seriously stress you making it difficult for you to attend to your tasks, you should put your emphasis on working in a stress free, respectful, and affectionate environment. Working environments continuously affected by tough infighting, and where competitive conflicts are intense represent too great a strain.


Adjectives which describe your type;

extroverted, practical, sentimental, planning, emotional, temperamental, energetic, tradition-conscious, loyal, helpful, devoted, reliable, caring, objective, thorough, organised, warm-hearted, open, friendly, sociable, chummy, obliging, self-sacrificing, public-spirited, sensitive, kind, demanding.

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take once, for most accurate results. [:

anyways, school's pretty bad for me today. ):
because i sprained my ankle therefore it's no pe or cca for me for the next 2 weeks.
and i've to walk around with my bandage on my foot. =.=

that also means, no more cheerleading, no more captains ball.
nothing but just studies, for now. -.-

and i still can't decide if i'm going for tomorrow's care and share day! =/

suddenly, i feel that you're so far away from me .

♥Friday, February 20, 2009

i don't know why,
i don't know how.
i don't want to think this way;
but i'm beginning to realise that i no longer know who you truly are .





















or did i not even knew who you were in the first place .

♥Thursday, February 19, 2009

sometimes, the world's just too complicated to be even comprehended .

♥Tuesday, February 17, 2009

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! ♥

shall try blogging tomorrow, about major events in january.
and also, today's promotion test for npcc. ~_~
hehhhhhhhh, anticipate my next post (!!!)
LOL.

but briefly, promo test results was;

OKAY. -.-
hahahahhahahahahhaha.

there just seem to be thoughts overflowing in my mind .

♥Saturday, February 14, 2009

today! yes, since i promised to update today! i shall make this a rushed post alright! =/ because if i don't post today, i think this updating thingy will snowball up to months! okay, so i'm just going to post events without photos first alright!

i'll only elaborate if i can remember the event, so i might edit anytime i feel like it k. (:

9th december - 12th december 2008!
it was work attachment, i remembered! :D boy, was it fun yet exhausting. firstly, i had to switch like 2 buses, and it means i have to wake up like 6 each morning because the zoo's all the way at mandai. ~_~ plus i was alone, since everyone else either didn't had time or didn't wanna go for the injection.

basically, it was a unique experience for me. ^^ i got to go into the staff area and though i only knew people from the education department, maggie, kit, june, chris, heather, bahhh. i can't remember who else. T_T and i got to enter the zoo for 4 times free of charge! :DDD imagine; $23.5 x4 = $80 + (!!!)

for that week, we had to do like video taping washing. so it's kinda boring, as compared to previous weeks, where they got to interact with more animals and stuff/camps. ): but well, on the last day, i got to participate in a camp! wow, i sat on this animal-like car and travel around with small childcare kids. ^^V

it has been like 7 years since i last went to the zoo, big change i must say! and i felt very new to the place. =/ because it was like i went touring around the zoo during my free time, and i had this staff tag on which has my name, so many tourists asked me where to see this mo mo animal etc etc. and i just anyhow anyhow point, LOL. paiseh siah. o'.'o

i got to feed well, not big but small cute animals. (: and the public can't see it, except for those who come for camp. and i get to touch them but not the kids, hahahahaha. what a joy! :D prepared their dinner, and while i was checking video tapes everyday then, i had a small animal running around in the room each day! ^^

actually, i do have tons of photos, but according to the contract i signed, i can't reveal to the public. oh wells, you'll have to wait for my presentation in school if you want to see the photos! teeheehee. :D

14th december 2008!
roslin's big day! (: and our day started off with a blast (!!!) :D but chunluan couldn't make it. =/ well, but we went to downtown east wild wild wet for like the first time, together! LOL. so, .. we had this surprise planned for roslin and she had no freaking idea that we actually planned out a surprise for her!

okay, here's the catch. we told her that we weren't gonna wear swimming costumes, but only shirt and shorts which makes us being unable to participate in many things. well, but when we got to the changing room, ta-da! roslin's swimming suit popped out from nowhere. LOL (!!!) it turns out that we did went to her house several days ago without her knowing and getting her suit. thanks to her mummy for hiding the surprise so well! teehee. :D

how could we come and not play everything manzxc! HAHAHA. okay, so we did played from like afternoon till around 6+ and then going for dinner. now that's another hidden plan! and she fell for it, again. LOL. she had the very cute voice, "wlao eh, ni men pian wo!" xD

after all that, roslin and i went home through the mrt. (:

16th december - 18th december 2008!
had humanities, emaths, chemistry and physics re-test! first 2 were pretty fine and i'm proud to say i passed it! :D as for the sciences, it wasn't really so positive as it came as a shock to me and i totally flunked it. ~_~

well, after my last paper for december on sciences, i met up with li jin and went to cineleisure to watch cape no.7! it's a rather good show, i must say. because the story plot looks new and it seems interesting to watch on though it's in some weird language. touching story manzxc. :B teeheehee!

20th december 2008!
morning was my christmas performance! and the 3 of them watched it, lol! and they made a lot alot of noises. well, then i went out with lijin, jorim and sheryl (them). but i can't remember the details! ahhhhh, besides the dentist and both jorim and lijin going my house to learn pool for that. haha. (:

22nd december - 23rd december 2008!
trainers camp for sec one orientation camp'09! so we tried out the activities for the sec 1s 2009, seeing if it's okay for them to participate. and all i can say for this entire camp? it was great, esp. being a senior fa! :DDDDD was kinda lonely though because yuqi wasn't around, making me the only girl for senior fa. ._.

oh yes, did i say that my junior fas are wonderful too! ^^ i thank them for making my job half easier by co-operating with me and accepting my feedback for them! [: to think i thought i was going to face problems! okay, i think too much, lol. -.-

24th december 2008!
went early in the morning to fetch xiuwen and yuqi back from cambodia. however, it wasn't really too good a morning. kinda had misunderstandings but i'm glad it's all resolved now! ^^ spent the rest of my afternoon in yuqi's house slacking. :B

25th december 2008!
the morning was at my church i suppose. (: then after that, i met up with yuqi and xiuwen who then proceeded to my house for christmas, wear christmas hat and zi high! dinnered and ate log cake at my house! :DDDDDD loved that christmas! ^^

27th december 2008!
met my class that i was taking, 1A! cute class, i must say. and like the quietest class too. =.= it was not really that easy to get them high but they're at least paying attention which is good. thought that it was not going to be easy to get them to talk, but looks out i worry too much again! D: LOLLLLL.

29th december 2008!
ate lunch with esteemortal! like finally an outing, after !@*$^$%@*% years. LOL. catched up with her quite a bit which then i took bus 21 after lunch to meet xiuwenroslinchunluan for kbox! :DDD sang like nuts, but it was quite ex! ): then chiong ah for tuition. lololololollllll. :D

31st december 2008!
i just remembered going to countdown with my youngest sister with sheryl and company at ehub! wlao eh, the place was so so crowded. i could still remember. x.x

i'm gonna change the songs, well one of them, soon. :B anyways, i shall just leave my january post to next weekend, as well as my church camp! pictures soon, hopefully. (:

somewhere, somebody is living in bliss .

♥Sunday, February 08, 2009

blog song's changed to thinking of you, and save you. anyways, it's quite late so i shall try updating tomorrow. i'm already 2 months plus behind in posts already! ._. wow, that's long. time now; 2254.

bahhhhhhhhh, i suddenly feel so emo now. -.-
i'll just go, sleep to escape from reality.

♥Saturday, February 07, 2009