I throw all of your stuff away
Then I clear you out of my head
I tear you out of my heart,
and ignored all your messages.
I tell everyone we are through
Cause I'm so much better without you.
But it's just another pretty lie
Cause I break down, everytime you come around.
O Oh O Oh

So how did you get here under my skin?
Swore that I'll never let you back in.
Should have known better
Than trying to let you go, cause here we go go go again.
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you is so addictive.
We're falling together
You'd think that by now I'd know cause here we go go go again.

You never know what you want,
And you never say what you need.
I start to go insane everytime that you look at me.
You only hear half of what I say,
and you're always showing up too late.
And I know that I should say goodbye, but it's no use.
Can't be with or without you
O Oh O Oh

So how did you get here under my skin?
Swore that I'll never let you back in.
Should have known better
Than trying to let you go, cause here we go go go again.
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you is so addictive.
We're falling together
You'd think that by now I'd know cause here we go go go again.

Ohhh

And again
and again
and again
and again
and again!

I threw all of your stuff away.
And I cleared you out of my head
And I tore you out of my heart.
O Oh O Oh O Oh O Oh

So how did you get here under my skin?
Swore that I'll never let you back in.
Should have known better
Than trying to let you go, cause here we go go go again.
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you is so addictive.
We're falling together
You'd think that by now I'd know cause here we go go go again.

here we go again, here we go again.
We're falling together
we need to find out why now cause here we go go go again.

Go again,
and again,
and again,
and again
and again,
and again,
and again.
can't be with or without you, irony .

♥Sunday, September 13, 2009

still aching from X-country yesterday.
but all the pain's worth the while being able to do the class proud by being top 15!
didn't manage to win the class awards but it was alright.
because 4C has been a great class, ............ uh no.
the best class i've been in.
seriously, from the times of being the noisest pure sciences class,
to the sec 3 teambuilding camp, to the class jokes,
to the adam khoo bag day - week, to the minor details of cheering on every classmate during school events, to the one-big-clique 4C sentosa outing,
to the class photo-taking, to teacher's day,
to everything we've been through.
we've had so much wonderful memories to reminiscence upon.
and much more awesome memories to create. (:
i've never been in such a bonded class before.
even though we've been received so much complaints from teachers that we were way too noisy than a standard 4C would be,
i believe that we've touched each and everyone of our teachers' hearts this teacher's day.
so it gets a little ... sad when each day brushes us by, because it represents that all of this would be gone, ... instantly.



in a blink of an eye.
-

MTP on thursday.
to be honest, it felt really weird when i saw the words,
"Holistic Report Card, Overall Results for 2009."
4 years in dunman has been really a ... breeze.
i can't imagine that i'm already 16, believe it or not.
it seems like yesterday that i was only 13 ...................................
when i closed my eyes, i see scenes flashing back in time.
sec 1 orientation camps, npcc, guitar, council, ltc, 1C, 2D, 3C, 4C, studies, conflicts, cherished friendships, lost friendships.
i've grown out of the immature and irrational girl that i was in sec 1.
one who was a complain queen, keep on complaining!! hahaha. :P
glad that i didn't opt out of dunman for CCHM.
the dunman experience had been a really, enjoyable one. (:

okay, talking about results.
improved on the whole, but i really need to work really much more harder if i want my distinctions.
i feel really touched how dunman teachers are putting in so much for us to do well.
shall touch on that another time when i can.
"the one who persevered the most will win the race."
something that's pushing me on, strongly.









i know it's really so inappropriate to be thinking about it now but i've been doing it subconsciously.
still pondering over it after so long.
the feeling that keeps lingering within my soul.
it's difficult to really get things to meet eye to eye at times.
when your rational mind tells you that you've made the right choice,
yet your indecisive heart tells you that you've made the wrong decision.
hmmmmmm.

♥Saturday, September 05, 2009

have you ever been in a situation where you're always sandwiched in between two people?
both whom you cherished a lot as friends.
and all this while, you've been trying to make things work out.
in the end, you unintentionally hurt one friend's feelings?
and within seconds, you broke buckets of trust of a friend because of the wrong things you said.
now, while you continue living your life everyday, you're unable to avoid either of them.
and even though everything may seem okay, and you're putting on a smile,
you know within you, you're aware that that's just a facade.
and deep within your heart, you sincerely hope that things will just get better and that everything was back to where it was.
but you understand, .. that it's not possible.

have you ever felt guilty and disappointed to a friend at the same time?
guilty because you broke her/his trust.
disappointed because she made use of you.
that contradictory feeling which can rip apart your whole self instantly.

perhaps.
if you have gone through whatever i've said above,
then maybe.








you would empathise how i'm feeling right now, at this moment.

♥Friday, September 04, 2009