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29 February 2008

. ; i'm sorry.
and i meant it from the bottom of my heart.

maybe you can't sense it for now.
but time is all you need to prove things wrong.

new song ! (:
when i'm with you - faber drive.
i like the tune of the song. <3

♥Friday, February 29, 2008

though the world seems to be changing, i still seem to be the same .

finally, week 9 of term 1.

gone like that.

another hectic but emotional week.

don't really wish to describe about the lessons or whatever.

they are just boring.

and i'm too tired to even bother to type out the whole week.

so it's all summarized !

monday with npcc campcraft com trng.

tuesday with .. i can't remember. ><

wednesday with campcraft com trng.

thursday with mortal ! [:

friday with chien and yuqi. :D

whawhawha,

but i must say these last 2 days(today included) were hard to get by.

thursday, i quarrelled with xywm.

stupid thoughts of ending my life once and for all.

well, apparently, i'm still here.

i have so much things i haven't done and i still have regrets .

friday's rather emotional.

stepped on xywm's toes again and made her angry.

all thanks to my stupid "confrontation",

.....

i shan't continue.

thanks for all the concern from those who were there. (: (you know who you are)

but it was alright later on.
we got things all sorted out(i think)

and lunched at bbt before going to tm.

and then mrt-ed home.

since it was quite late already.

common test's next week.

all the best, peeps ! (:

spiritally dead ;

mentally distressed .

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i guess you would have never expected how afraid am i;

to let ___know you . i'm scared, really .

Labels: tired.emotional.listless

♥Friday, February 29, 2008

27 February 2008

HAPPY FIFTEENNNNNNNNNNNN BIRTHDAY to MY DEAREST.

LEONG YU QI.

aka

YUKIMCHI

aka

YUKI

aka

HONEYLEMONHALLS (!!!)

finally 15 ~~

ROCK ON GIRL ~! (:

and keep smiling all day.

for every smile brightens part of the world each day. {:

the world of love .

ps. i'm sorry for keep teasing you, saying that you're old or whatever.

i don't mean to make you angry on purpose by saying things that are super qb.

i don't mean to make you sad on purpose by doing things i shouldn't be doing. (maybe?)

i don't mean to trouble you all the time by looking for you each time i need help.

thankyou for everything.

but this does not mean that you can crawl over me hor. lol:D

please grant me this wish upon a shooting star.

to let you continue to depend on you, at least for now.

maybe it's time to get things sort out and done with .

Labels: A smile is a curve that can set alot of things straight.

♥Wednesday, February 27, 2008

26 February 2008

It's hard to watch people change right in front of you . But the worst part is remembering who they used to be .

- ;

you've changed completely.

i no longer know you anymore.

that question still lingers in me.

"what happened to you?"

where's that soulmate i used to know?

and the most ridiculous part is ,

my helpless soul is still searching for the old you.

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it just feels funny.

how much people can change.

they don't seem pretty much what they used to be.

i really don't know it's changing for better or for the worse, maybe ?

i wanted everything to stay the same but feelings fade and people change .

definition of change :

- It's a short trip from riding the waves of chances to being torn apart by jaws of defeat .

- Scary and confusing .

- When the winds of change blow hard enough, the most trivial of things can turn into deadly projectiles .

- The only constants in life .

perhaps mine's the second option .

it's difficult to apprehend what people are thinking about when they change.

especially your close friends.

i'm just not emo.

~~i'm just sad.~~

okay, maybe i'm more than just sad

perhaps this was the reason why the friendship is pretty much ruined ;

and even breaking that bond between us .

i'm afraid .

Labels: It's funny how a heart is two tear-drops upside down .

♥Tuesday, February 26, 2008

25 February 2008

my mood's like the stars that refuse to shine at night now .

seriously, i wonder to myself how long this would really take.

one day, one week, one month or even one year ?

it still boils down to one thing.

i can't get over it.

it feels just like a barrier or something.

sunday's been great with church in the morning.

and meeting up with chien, ng, penguin, chia.

finished up the stuff we did and so decided last minute.

to watch a movie.

P.S I LOVE YOU ! (:

the plot's not bad.

the small notes are sweet but it seems to be letting the girl cling on.

oh wells. \:

and coincidently, we saw.

joanna, jiaying, shuting and lijin ! :D

LOL.

plus, we were sitting at the same row , E (:

it was funny we didn't notice each other !!!

rushed off to the convention at suntec.

with jj lin as guest star singer.

yes, girls go gaga over him.

i'm not really a fan of his, just being a supporter and screaming abit ?

so i watched this whole thing, 3hour ++

just to watch him sing for half an hour.

okay, seriously. that's wasting time.

reached home late.

thus, being listless in class today.

oh great.

and seriously, i feel we're in deep trouble if we aren't able to finish on time. O:

some words that a certain person wrote on the blog affected me pretty badly.

emo ? ._.

take my tears, they say alot ;

since you're the one who put them there .

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being unable to see you for days ;

it just doesn't seem to bother me that much anymore .

♥Monday, February 25, 2008

24 February 2008

LOL, chien is sad cause chin is not here for her tonight ! O:

lonely and emo~ =x

can't wait for outing later on ~ :D

♥Sunday, February 24, 2008

23 February 2008

and i have so much movies i want to catch ! :D
such as.

P.S i love you.
Jumper.
L. change the world.
The leap year.
okay, that's quite alot actually. =p

anyone ? (:
LOL.

♥Saturday, February 23, 2008

living my life aimlessly everyday .

ohmy, i can't believe i haven't been posting for a week (!!!)

but i think this will be like a normal routine.

and i have to get used to it.

BOO. ):

the past week has really been as usual.

HECTIC.

monday and wednesday are like campcraft com.

tuesday's like guitar.

thursday's like remedial ? and helping chien to buy momoren's present ^^

SERIOUSLY, I LIKE THE CARD ALOT.

WHA, I DONT CARE, CHIEN.

I EXPECT MINE TO BE LIKE THAT TOO.

lol, jk(:

friday's unit training, relaxing.

and also to celebrate that our unit has gotten a GOLD UOPA AWARD :DDDD

OH YES ^^

i've been getting either merely passes or FAILED for class tests.

super disappointed with myself.

CHRISTY ! you have to work much harder if you want to get into your dream jc/poly !!!

seriously, i can't find the motivation to study harder on, if this continues.
but oh wells, let's look it on the positive side.

failure is the mother of success :D

today was tiring too.

campcraft com morning as usual.

tying all the same things all over again.

and like, i got a splinter after the last try. -_-

it's like some sharp thing pokes into your skin.

worse still, mine POKES right inside my skin.

TIAN AR ! D:

thanks to the respective ics and instructors, it came out.

but it hurts like ____ when they had to cut my skin to get it out. \:

then, went to HTA to support the guys for their competition.

i thought theirs was the best.

and i believed they did their best.

GOOD JOB. {:

and ARENA did well, i suppose ? (:

out tmr AGAIN ~~with chien~~

with chien, chia, penguin, ng.

followed by some concert by jj lin at night.

dont feel like going lei~

haha(:

to those people ;

sorry for being like so emo/sian/sad/upset/angry (your pick) like almost everyday.

it's just that problems keep adding every moment i solve one.

but seriously. thankyou for being so understanding.

i really appreciate your concerns.

my mood's like the stars that refuse to shine ;

and i don't think it's a good thing.

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I'm scared to get close to anyone (EVEN YOU);

because everyone who said 'I'll be there' left.

♥Saturday, February 23, 2008

16 February 2008

oh yes and today ! =x

saturday ;
guitar in the morning.
where conductor arranged us the sitting arrangement for the musical extravangaza.
2nd row ! =p
practiced on all 5 songs.

oh yes, and something i need to mention.
anyone interested in buying the tickets for the musical extravangaza.
date : 21st march 2008 <- good friday(:
venue : vch.
time : 0730-0930
ccas performing : string, guitar and band.
please tag on my tagboard if you're interested, thanks ! ^^

afternoon, went for npcc.
only to realize that the training was held forward to 0130 instead of 3.
but i didn't regret going though.
i had a great laugh. :D
miss poh was funny las !

went to kfc with seaweed the ji dan, emonot and banana.
then we ate and chatted about school.
like seriously, i think some people should reflect on themselves.
zz.

ROSLIN IS SUPER HUA CHI !
look below :

before we finished eating,
lol, we saw benjamin(campussuperstar) with his friends.
then emonot !
kept LOOKING AT HIM.
and say he SHUAI.
LOL. =p

so somehow.
benjamin they all sit in front of us.
then roslin kept looking at him.
HUA CHI SEYYY.

banana started freaking out.
cause she thought she lost her phone.
only to realize.
that it was in her pocket all the time.
we went "WLAO".
then benjamin looked back and stare at me sey.
i'm SO ACCUSED !

we left soon after.
while at the bus stop.
roslin kept looking at kfc's direction.
lol, and kept saying he SHUAI.
even banana AGREES ! O:

this was what banana said.
"i wouldn't mind being accused actually"
OH MY.
roslin even more kua zhang.
"aiya, should i known, i would have sat at christy's place. i wouldn't mind being accused !"
something like that. =x

alot of funny things happened luh.
and it's all because of benjamin.
roslin became super high.
banana too, ohmy.

actually, come to think of it.
he's quite shuai actually. =p
HAHA.

♥Saturday, February 16, 2008

saturday ; 090208