when the going gets tough, that's when you must push yourself harder so as to overcome all these challenges.
that's what i'll do, i guess.

♥Sunday, January 27, 2008

yes, we'll definitely pull this through, twin. <3

♥Saturday, January 26, 2008

campcraft competition at kcpss.
though we didn't win, at least we got an experience.
continue to jyjy, dunman ^^

went bishan junction 8 after.
gai gai again with them.
and had lunch with roslin, edwina, cl and kt.

met up with xiuwen and yuqi later on.
to expo we went.
where they were asking people to donate.
i donated like what, about 7 coins ?
and they pasted stickers all around me-.-
LOL ?

gave back the donation cans at around 5++
took a photo only.
upload soon, when xiuwen sends me, that is.
bus-ed home in number 2 !

that's about it, actually.
for today.

♥Saturday, January 26, 2008

the week has been real ups and downs !
hectic and stressful too !
but i'll pull through ! (right, mortal^^)

monday ;
supposedly cip at old saints home!
but in the end.
because of miscommunication.

the cip was cancelled.
so we went around and chatted with the elderly !
got to know this cute cute granny who knows how to speak english.

called annie ^^
but she seemed to have forgotten me ):
she's still super cute la !

came back to school.
went for interviews for council.
peer.pe.eps.
scary. O:

tuesday ;
chionged lunch with xiuwen and yuqi !
guitar lessons !
sat with dearest lijin and deanne.
my mood wasn't really good.

they tried cheering me up though.
deanne for the sweet. and lijin for naming it the "happy pill" .
haha(:
thanks for the "happy pill" okay.

wednesday ;
npcc campcraft com training.
just trained on the gadget and shelter.
almost the same thing every time.
we have to be faster to finish on time. JYJY:D

thursday ;
slacked. O:
but the day was still affected.
eating at kfc, chatting, gai-gai and most importantly, ______ (:

friday ;
npcc training.
pt was extra tough.
the weather was extra hot.
my body was extra weak-.-

and and and.
my mood was badly affected previously.
but thankyou, estee for chatting for awhile with me{:

anyways, 2.4km run was pretty much okay.
it's an A but not up to my expectations. O:
i want a full score of 30. * GASPS *

competition tmr.
everyone, jyjy(:

sorry to all, might edit the post tmr again.
cause not really in the mood to blog actually.
thankyou, lijin for listening {:
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that promise i'll never break ;
i'll hold on because of you.

♥Friday, January 25, 2008

managed to squeeze some time out to come online and update ! :D
but only just a few minutes of my time before i'm off again !
time's for us to make use of, and not to waste it.

school's been really hectic !
homework coming in, and tests popping out of nowhere. ._.
peer support's starting !
1G ^^

not much talking and bonding sessions with 3C. \:
i am still not socialising much with the people from other classes.
oh wells, i'm so looking forward to the sec 3 adventure and teambuilding camp !
it sounds nice and fun. :DDDDD

all sec 3s bonding together, just like the sec one orientation camp 2006 !
YAY !
2 years passed SUPER FAST already. \:
one more year less than a year before my big 'O's start. D:
hmt ! \:

i still can't adapt to the upper secondary school life.
the fact that my lessons ends at 0205 EVERYDAY.
and being held back in school almost everyday of my life for 2008.

will update much more during the weekends ! :D

there's been something that's been bothering me lately.
and seriously, it affects my whole well being today.
my attitude and behaviour was pulled down by a certain matter.
so sorry to those whom felt sad and down with me ! \:
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you're that light i keep holding on to ;
during the part of my life that is full of darkness.

♥Wednesday, January 23, 2008

♥Sunday, January 20, 2008

well, alot of random thoughts has been running through my head these few days.
like how fast 2 years has passed, and i'm already a sec. 3.
all the things that happened within these two years (and still, ongoing)
and of course, more responsibilities and burdens to shoulder year by year.
and much more.
i really hope i could overcome all these obstacles that's hindering me back.

. ;
i've noticed how much you've matured within these few years.
and i'm really happy for you.
perhaps i'm no longer that friend you always find when you needed advice.
or even when you needed company.
but i'll always be there for you when you need me.
and thankyou so much, trying to cheer me up when you know i'm sad.
as i'll do the same if vice versa.
i really miss alot of things that i did with you for these past2 years.
it's really too much to even count.
but will it ever happen again.

school's been really stressful ! \:
and alot of things has been troubling me.
thanks, lijin(:
for listening to me today during guitar ^^

if only i was that strong ;
i just can't control my emotions.
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don't talk just for the sake of talking ;
it really makes me sad.

♥Tuesday, January 15, 2008

# ; i don't understand how you feel.. ?
trust me, i know much more than you can ever expect of me.
and stop being so selfish, please.
and blaming others when something goes wrong.
you have no rights to talk to us in that way.
let alone being our leader.
but we're all giving you a second chance.

it just makes me so annoyed.
trying to cheer you up as a friend but instead get the cold shoulder.
and unpleasant words.
why did i even bother to even reply you in the first place.

i should have just ignored that.
why am i so.. ?

Labels: inconsiderate

♥Monday, January 14, 2008

SIAN LAAAAAAAA ! -.-
WHERE'S MY TAGBOARD )):
LOL, i want it back ! \:

tired of everything.

- ; i'm gonna get it back.
and i make sure i do.
you watch and see.

Labels: 400th post wasted.

♥Sunday, January 13, 2008

finally got time to post one last time before going through another hectic week ! \:
saturday ;
npcc recruitment drive training.
pioneering for sec. 3s.
the structure was okay overall, just needed some improvements.
we can do better ! :DD

met up with xiuwen and yuqi at tm.
since it was quite late already, yuqi has bought her new clothes alr !
and it started raining when we made our decision to go to ikea !

so much stuff i would like to buy at ikea !
beds, tables, chairs and more ! LOL.
ate hotdog :DDD

before proceeding on to giant opposite.
and bought our sushi there.
saw quanyifeng, bryan wong, edmond chen and yvonne lim there.
recording some variety show that will shown during cny, i suppose.

went home after.
i dozed off in the bus so yeah, when i woke up.
i didn't really know where was i-.-
and i kinda freakedout.
but well, here i am ! (:

sunday ;
woke up early to reach church at 0930
had to lead everyone the songs again.
scary scary. \:

ate lunch at ri ben cun !
ate alot of salmon sushi and a bowl of terriyaki chicken ramen ! [:
shopped around tm and cs.

saw afew dunman people.
but it's expected.
tampines mahhhhhhhh.
and also saw VP. DDD:

went home and off to xiuwen's house !
initially wanted to go to airport to study.
but yuqi and roslin couldn't make it,
so that bai ci had no mood to go out=.-

and she didn't want to go out and HELP ME. ._.
well, i did my homework at her house. :D
very peaceful. {:
thankyou for clearing my doubts, xywm ! ^^

byebye weekends and hello school. -.-
morehomeworkmorehomework. T_T
sian laaaaaa.

your words made me peeved for awhile ;
is it really worth it.
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you make me so sad sometimes and happy this time ;
but i'm really unsure if we could stay that way forever .
because people do change.

♥Sunday, January 13, 2008

whaaaaaa-.-
this can really give me a heart attack.
zz.

♥Friday, January 11, 2008

whoo, it's finally friday (:
and yet another week of school is over.
it's kinda long actually. T_T

thursday ;
lessons were okay,
couldn't really catch up though !
i'm trying doing my best.

after school !
went off to find my dearest sec 1Go8 class.
LOL-.-
i'm like the only facilitator for 1G in council left. ._.

brought them around for CCA recruitment thingy.
fun day talking to the girls ! :DDD
and of course, like lame-ing with them. =.-
at least, they bothered to listen.

friday ;
emaths. just some completing the square thingy.
amaths ! i kinda like the teacher ; heehee.
but long division confuses me luh ! \:
literature ! kinda like watching instead of reading-.-
english. no comments.
social studies. group work, nothing much actually.

npcc ; preparing for the upcoming campcraft competition.
jyjy, people(:
there's still training tmr. * yawns *
oops. =x

and man, i have like a whole truckload of homework to do.
a proposal to rush through.
and a task to do !
frustrating. ><
and of course, problems.

the feeling still lingers ;
but will you ever know.
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you said that you didn't want to see me sad.
but does that mean you closed your eyes when you see me crying ?

♥Friday, January 11, 2008

i think i should stop like coming online everyday.. ? -.-
i feel so bad now la, like i'm procrastinating instead. ._.
but afterall, i'm online now for some reasons.
so i guess it should be okay.. ? :D

school's like obviously stressful.
and homework's definitely piling up already.
officially, i screwed up the test that mdm sharifah give today. ><
her teaching method, i can't adapt. \:
wlao, this makes me miss mrs lim ! ):

physics with the measurements and stuff.
chemistry with particles and molecules.
hmt with 'o' level coming at early october.
english with more vocab and grammar practices.
a maths with more complicating numbers and sums.
e maths with graphs being explained unclearly.
ss with idontknowwhat'sgoingon. ._.
and ss/geog with all the contour lines.

lots and lots of stuff making me freak out-.-
i need teachers !!
and i felt i kinda pissed mdm sharifah off today.
oh no. \:

shall blog with much more enthusiasm during weekends okay.
i dont really have time to think now. \:
* gasps * alot of homework not done yet.
and i want my sleep ! ><

i really want to know ;
how you feel about me, deep inside.
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i've got so much to say ;
yet i can't express myself to you.

♥Wednesday, January 09, 2008

school's been rather stressful these few days.
there's lots to catch up since i've missed 2 days of school.
and it's like really alot-.-

there are like a lot of homework and cca's been busy lately.
so blogging might not be an easy task to do anymore. O:
depends on my workload.

if i can finish my work, then most probably, i'll blog.
if not, i guess, i'll blog during the weekends.
but that is if i'm energetic enough to do so. \:

okay, a word of advise to all.
LOL, okay. maybe a phrase.
you cannot go back to the past and start a new beginning. ;
instead, you can start today and make a new ending.
so people, jyjy(:
MUG HARD. :DDDDDDD

the whole world stops ;
when i'm talking to you.
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it's just the same old routine ;
but it no longer feels the same anymore.

♥Tuesday, January 08, 2008

i shall make this post a super short one.
since it's quite late already.
hmmmm,
today's just the normal routine.
church.tm.home. :D

church was great.
people coming in and people graduating !
and there was a powerpoint slide show that got me laughing my ass off.
hahaaa.

had lunch at tm.
bought clothes there at one of the shops!
waiting for sister and myself to be free,
so that we can go out to buy more clothes(:

home.
slept for afew hours.. ?
before making my way out to dinner.
before that, got a haircut again. ._.
not much difference though.

school's tmr again.
and i'm still not used to the class.
there's gonna be a change of sitting arrangement.
but i still haven't got to know any new friends yet. \:

my voice almost recovered ! (:
just that it's still a little sore though.
oh yes, school's stressful. T_T
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no matter how i keep trying to make myself busy ;
i still think of you.

♥Sunday, January 06, 2008

3rd and 4th january ; thursday and friday

seconeorientationcamp'08.
i won't go into details for the camp.
just a summary, i suppose.

day one.

all the briefing and stuff done in school.
took the bus and reached the campsite at cck.
settled down.
one of the FAs in 1G, taking overall in charge of 1G2.

alot of things happened after.
putting down of bags. drill session. lunch. bmt/otl phrase, where the games are being played.
dinner. graduation night preparation. learning of dunman tempo. supper.
washing up. collecting of instructors tee. sleeping time.
only slept for 3hours though. \:

okay, i shall just elaborate afew details.
drillsession.
of course to some campers, it's really boring to do the same drills over and over again. but they've done kinda well. for just about one hour of teaching. their morale was still kinda low though. \:

bmt/otl phrase.
the games were fun yet meaningful. it was something that perhaps, the campers can learn from. all the basic communication, co-ordination, teamwork, taking the intiative and muchmuchmore. got their morale kinda high here, which i'm happy about. and there are quite afew outstanding campers in 1G2, who kept taking the intiative.

grad night preparation/learning of dunman tempo.
it was around 8+ when they were doing this. so their morale kinda went down already. i could see that the campers were tired, so there weren't really much suggestions. but they still listened. and learning of dunman tempo was awesome. heehee.

daytwo.
washing up. morning pt. breakfast. the great raid. victory march. lunch(ontheway)
graduation night final preparation. dinner. graduation night performance. passing out parade.
debrief. took bus back to school. school. homesweethome(:

the great raid.
i think the only two classes that 1G competed with was 1A and 1C. and it was kinda fun. though 1G only won one match, but it's alright. because i could see alot of bonding between the class. how i miss my orientation camp now. LOL.

victory march.
1G2 really got me cranking up. being high and everything. super happy that 1G2 was able to have faster movements and having more courage to speak up. 3 stations were all we went, but at least mobile tents was taken off, which is like. phew !

grad night final preparation.
finally the class got it going and everything's doing fine. but it started raining in the middle of the preparation but it wasn't really completed. instead, there was cheers. by that time, their morale went high ! YAY. :DDD

grad night performance.
leaded the class for the cheers. and the performance went on smoothly which they've only prepared like half, but they still managed to do it well. i'm proud of 1G ! :DDD WOO. umbrella ellah, ellah, eh eh eh ! :DDDD

then cheering for the other classes, watching them perform and lastly dunman tempo which was pretty successful.

passing out parade.
okay, shouting and screaming for 1G2 to organise themselves for passing out parade was the final straw that kinda lost my voice already. O: and they were promoted from private to lance corporal. congrats 1G2(:

school.
had a debrief and took group photos. :D

5th january ; saturday
collected the stuff needed for school from xiuwen.
thanks alot.

it's hard to adapt to this sometimes ;
the way we are.
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i can give up all the time needed ;
just to take care of you.

♥Saturday, January 05, 2008

241207 ; outing with lijin(:
one and only hope[:
(:
sandcastle village by kayleen, lijin and christy !
kayleen with her dearest maid.
we dug this place and found treasure! ;D

♥Saturday, January 05, 2008

woooo~~
school started today. -.-
but yet, it's like a total new environment.

seeing different faces.
seeing different teachers.
seeing the difference from shorts - long pants for guys.
seeing the guys looking so weird in their long pants.
oh wells, but i guess this is a upper secondary life.

i'm still thinking myself as a secondary 2 actually ! ):
but hope that soon, i'll get myself to adapt to secondary 3 life.
and know more new friends of course.

and teachers are like expecting higher standards from us upper secondary students.
it's like, they keep emphasizing on the big 'O's coming up pretty soon.
most subjects for next year early october, hmt for this coming end of years. \:
i'm still in the holiday mood. ._.

so i've decided !
i shall start study as much as i can for 'o' level as soon as seconeorientationcampo8's over.
i've wasted too much time on secone and sectwo already.
plus i still have to catch up with the lessons for the next 2 days ! \:
NO MORE PROCRASTINATING (!!!!!!!!) O:
ps. if i start procrastinating, you may consider scolding/encouraging me. thanks.

the sec1s were quite alright.
i guess quite a number of people will be MIA for the next 2 days of school.
because of seconeorientationcampo8.
people like me and more.
so there won't be much blogging. \:

i will miss alot of people, really !

and like finally, the photos are up ! (:
thanks, lijin.
i'll post them after i'm back, guarantee ! :DDDDD
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seeing your face being so sad today ;
really breaks my heart.

♥Wednesday, January 02, 2008

spent my day today at cl's house !
doing npcc annual camp general activities proposal.
but not really finished yet.

school's starting tmr.
i'm not ready ! 0.o
oh wells, i should be starting to pack now.
so byebye(:

do you know how it feels like when a friend of yours is feeling rather down and yet no words of comforting could make her cheer up ? i do.
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it really hurts alot ;
because you're sad.

♥Tuesday, January 01, 2008

i can't believe i'm still online ! O:
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008!!
how time flies.
WOOOOOOOOOO.

Labels: byebye 2007, hello 2008.

♥Tuesday, January 01, 2008